(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 2: My Life Is Now Upsidedown

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As I sat on my couch with a glass of wine in hand, my phone rings taking from the memories of that night. When I looked at the phone, it read Gabby. I had no interest to hear what she had to say but as I sat there watching the phone ring and finally picked it up.

“Hello”, I mumbled annoyed

“You coming tonight?” she said happily in a loud background.

“No”, I said frustrated

“Why not…You know what, hold that thought, and open the door I’m outside”

“What? Why?”

“Just open the door”

When I opened the door standing there was Gabby, Briana, Victoria, Robin, and Debby. I didn’t know why they were all determined, to get me to go out the house.

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Briana

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Victoria

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Debby

“Get dressed”, Briana said forcefully.

“I don’t want to go” I replied.

“Why not?” Victoria whined.

“I just don’t feel like it”, I said

“Since when do you not feel like partying?” Laughed Robin

“Tonight”

“You have to” Debby said.

“Why do you insist I go?” I said wondering.

“Business baby girl” Debby answered.

“You do know there isn’t going to be anyone there worth your time, Right?” I replied.

“You don’t know that, maybe someone Trey is with…” Debby said.

“Oh no you know the rules you don’t settle for anybody. If it’s not the best then leave it where it stands” Robin preached.

“Preach sista, don’t let physical attraction cloud your mind to the purpose of our job” Gabby added.

Victoria interjected, “I don’t know what you’re talking about but, I want to go out to have fun for a change, no work involved and to be honest Christina you need to have fun. You work more than all of us. I don’t even know if you have a personal life anymore”.

Victoria knew the most about me out of the four of them. She knew about me and Trey and kept it to herself. So I would have to agree with her. Ever since Trey and I broke it off, I’ve been working longer and harder to avoid thinking about him but nothing or no one seemed to fill the void. I’m miserable and Victoria knows it.

“Okay fine I’ll go, now leave me along”. I said going into my room.

When we got to the club there was a line wrapped around the block. As we walked to the front of the line, we were automatically let in. Our job did have some perks and we took full advantage of them all. Gabby had gotten us a table, so as soon as we walked in we made our way to our table. The club was already packed and they were still letting people in. I was glad Gabby had gotten us a table ahead of time. Trey of course wasn’t there yet. My phone began ringing and a smiley face appeared on the screen.

Robin picked up my phone and said, “Smiley face, really? Is this work?”

I grabbed the phone out of her hand, “Mind your business”

“Someone’s getting busy with work”, Robin joked

Victoria defended Christine, “you’re the last one who should be talking about getting busy with work. That’s your hobby”.

All the girls started laughing which ended up making Robin upset.

“It was just a joke, calm down”, Victoria laughed.

I then began getting text messages, “Hey baby Wassup. I’m in town tonight I want to see you” and “I miss you”. As I read the messages I was confused. He broke it off with me and now he’s telling me he misses me. I slipped my phone to Victoria under the table so she could read the messages. After reading the messages she looked up, slipped me the phone and said, “Speaking of the devil”. I turned around to see Trey walking in with his entourage. The moment everyone saw, Trey cameras went crazy and female’s dresses got shorter.

When Trey and I were in a relationship we didn’t make public appearances together. Whenever we went out it was more of a calm or private place. I didn’t care for the world to know about us. The people we truly loved and cared about knew we were together and that was enough for me.

I watched Trey walk from the door all the way to his booth, wishing he was still mine. In that moment I thought about all the wonderful times Trey and I had together. I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. The girls looked around in confusion.

“What wrong with her?” said Briana. The girls shrugged their shoulders.

“She’s so dramatic. She always want attention”, Robin said taking a sip of her drink.

“I’m going to go see what’s wrong”, said Debby.

“No, I’ll go”, said Victoria as she quickly made her way to the bathroom. Victoria walked in to see me leaning against the wall.

To Be Continued…

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Discussion on Wale ft. Tiara Thomas – Bad

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Hello World its TheOnPointGurly, Domonique Hume. I’ve listened to “Bad” many times because the vocals are amazingly captivating. I took the liberty to look up the lyrics after just humming along with the song. In the song Wale describes a female that is physically, emotionally and mentally BAD. She doesn’t commit to anyone but she will make sure that your satisfied in bed. She doesn’t know how to love someone so all she can do is hurt them. This female he describes is BROKEN. She doesn’t want to be this person but that’s the only way she can protect her heart.

This is actually the position I find that a lot of females are in now because of a past broken relationship or upbringing. This type of female has been described as a Hoe but in my opinion you can’t call her that. Females are extremely fragile and any type of pain or heartbreak will alter their frame of mind. This causes a female to protect herself by not getting serious with anyone, keeping her in control. So she never gets hurt but she ends up hurting herself more by holding back.

Most times being in a situation as this one can really confuse a person. So they do things without understanding the consequences.

I feel for anyone in this position. All I can really say is don’t be afraid of your heart. Sometimes your heart can get broken but it helps you to become a stronger person.

Check out the video and lyrics…

I’m starting to think it ain’t for everybody
Most of us rushing into it anyways, you know what I’m saying
You ain’t rushing for love, and I ain’t up here to judge
Let’s neglect the what if’s and make it do what it does
Let’s get it

[Hook: Tiara Thomas]
Is it bad that I never made love, no I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck
I’ll be your bad girl, I’ll prove it to you
I can’t promise that I’ll be good to you
Cause I had some issues, I won’t commit
No, not having it
But at least I can admit that I’ll be bad noooooo to you (to you)
Yeah, I’ll be good in bed but I’ll be bad to you
Bad that I never made love, no I never did it
But I sure know how to fuck

[Verse 1: Wale]
Lets get it
Bad girls ain’t no good, and the good girls ain’t no fun
And the hood girls want a smart nigga, college girls all want a thug
So it seems we fiend for what we don’t need
Got a thing for a queen who know when to leave
I’m not bout to judge you, don’t judge me
You ain’t gotta really sing about your rap sheet
Cause I heard you (bad nooo)
In the literal sense I mean that
Rough sex saying I love yah
But to kiss them saying you mean that
I know I just be calling her mean ass
Oh the irony, got the bomb indeed
But the problem is it’s probably a deep past
Still I’m feeling of something I need bad
Thinking if I get her, I get her to need this
I don’t need emotions to open your deep sea
I conceive an ocean by going between legs
Beg, nope, bed, floor, dope
Go, for it, couch, now
Slow, mo-tion, around, put it down
Lord knows she was going for the morn, hold up

[Hook]

[Verse 2: Wale]
Let me tell you about, look
She hurt feelings, she break hearts
She stay quiet, she play smart
She take pride, in going out
Getting hollered at, and saying nah
She no saint, but she don’t pose
She don’t wear make up by the boat load
Riding through lake shore with the nose up
She don’t really date much but it slows her up
She got haters, but we all do
Heard you winter time cold, shawty fall through
Baby look at they approach how they court you
All those minds games nevermind cause they all lose
In the physical sense I mean that
I ain’t tryna kiss up, suck up, feed gas
I ain’t like them nigga you sucking your teeth at, nope
Play big, trust me I’ll humble your mean ass, look
Shawty is actually in prevent
Cause the one in front is working deep threat, yep
Bed, floor, couch, more
More, shower, Lord, perm
Done, love, nah
Called in the morning cell number wasn’t on, goddamn

[Hook]